Grief, Light, and the Practice That Changed Me
A story of surrender, healing, and what revealed itself through devotion.
There was a time in my life when I made a commitment to meet myself every single day.
This was in 2019, just after my mom had passed, and I knew deeply that there was nothing more important for me in that moment than tending to my grief.
So I sat with myself—in prayer, in devotion, and in a sincere commitment to healing. I didn’t fully know what would come from it, only that I needed to be with what was there.
I had always been sensitive to energy, even as a child. Feeling and sensing energy came naturally to me.
So when I began to pray, to cry, and to ask for support, something began to open.
As I reached upward, calling out for guidance, I felt this beautiful golden light begin to move through me. It would wash over me and through me from head to toe, holding me, comforting me, and allowing something to release.
It felt as though this light was cleansing every cell of my body, moving through my energy field and dissolving what had been held and suppressed—shame, guilt, grief, and emotions I had not yet allowed myself to feel.
Over time, I came to call this practice Inner Baptism.
Some days, this practice would take hours. There were days it felt intense—deep, raw, and confronting—but it always brought a sense of relief on the other side. There were moments where it felt like a dam breaking, a release of energy that had been held for so long. The emotion would move through me in waves, not to overwhelm me, but to finally be felt, expressed, and released.
I did this practice every single day for nine months. And by the end of those nine months, something had shifted within me.
I had reclaimed an unshakable sense of inner peace. There was a clarity in my body, a lightness, and a newfound vitality—a feeling of being fully alive and able to experience the fullness of my human life.
Today, Nicholas and I facilitated our weekly Embodied Practice within The Living Temple, where we worked with the energy of the living waters within.
Through movement and breath, we allowed the body to open and return to flow. After the movement practice, I guided us through this same energy process—the Inner Baptism.
What I noticed within myself was how much has changed, how much clearer my channel has become, and how the energy now moves with greater ease and grace.
This is a practice I now feel deeply called to share.
I have recorded Inner Baptism as a guided energy session, now available inside the Temple Library within The Living Temple.
If you feel called to meet yourself in this way, you are warmly invited to enter through the 7-day trial and experience it for yourself.
May this practice meet you gently, and support you in your own process of softening, clearing, and returning.
With love and devotion,
Kallie 🤍
